The author is a 20 something student. She lives in Toronto and loves the city life. She is very moody and can be persistent and stubborn if she believes that she is right. She prefers tea during the summer and coffee during the winter. Her life long dream is to work for NASA (hey who’s isn’t?) but for now she is comfortable with her career choice as an electrical engineer (it is a man’s world out there though!). She takes up various baking projects on the weekend to keep herself occupied. Otherwise her weekends are spent idling in malls and grocery stores. She likes to read about weird physics such as quantum mechanics, wormholes and string theory during her spare time.
Posted on 17th April 2010 under Rant
I don't love myself. I have this vision of me in my head, how I look and how I feel and I am always try achieving that vision. This obsession has taken a toll on me for worse. I have NO self confidence. I don't look at the mirrors sometimes. I am embarrassed to lift my head up and mostly walk facing my head down. And I let people push me around. In fact I feel like it's OK for them to push me around because they are just so pretty and I am just UGLY.
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Posted on 28th March 2010 under Rant
This past Friday I woke up with a visit from Mother Nature. Severe cramps and nausea soon ensued. With a gagging feeling and what felt like close to labour pains ravaging in my stomach, I got hold of the phone and called in sick at work. I was in no shape (physically is most part) to go to work. My excuse for not showing up to work: stomach flu. Well it was kind of close to what I experiencing. Admitting to my supervisor that the REAL reason I was really not showing up to work was because my period decided to bring her friends nausea and cramps was out of the question. Especially when the supervisor is a MALE.
With an entire day at home and unplanned, I decided to FIRSTLY take some pain medications for those DEADLY cramps and then caught up on some much needed sleep. With most of the day still left ahead of me, I decided to watch some documentaries online to pass the time. And what falls on my lap, none other than a documentary about menstruation.
The Moon Inside of You is a documentary which explores how both men and women experience menstruation and what it says about our western society.
This documentary does an excellent job discussing menstruation and how it is viewed by society. For most women, including me, menstruation is always a bad thing. I mean, I have never met a woman who was looking forward to getting her period (unless she thought she was pregnant). Periods make us moody, bloated and emotionally sensitive. Not to mention the physical PAIN that tags along with it. All those cramps, why do women only need to go through the experience?
The documentary is a very informative video about menstruation. It discusses the various taboos associated with menstruation, how the opposite sex views menstruation and the extreme measures taken by some women to stop their menstruation cycle. But most importantly it does an excellent job on how helping women view their period in a more positive way. I have to admit that after watching this video, I definitely felt a little better on being on my period.
With an entire day at home and unplanned, I decided to FIRSTLY take some pain medications for those DEADLY cramps and then caught up on some much needed sleep. With most of the day still left ahead of me, I decided to watch some documentaries online to pass the time. And what falls on my lap, none other than a documentary about menstruation.
The Moon Inside of You is a documentary which explores how both men and women experience menstruation and what it says about our western society.
This documentary does an excellent job discussing menstruation and how it is viewed by society. For most women, including me, menstruation is always a bad thing. I mean, I have never met a woman who was looking forward to getting her period (unless she thought she was pregnant). Periods make us moody, bloated and emotionally sensitive. Not to mention the physical PAIN that tags along with it. All those cramps, why do women only need to go through the experience?
The documentary is a very informative video about menstruation. It discusses the various taboos associated with menstruation, how the opposite sex views menstruation and the extreme measures taken by some women to stop their menstruation cycle. But most importantly it does an excellent job on how helping women view their period in a more positive way. I have to admit that after watching this video, I definitely felt a little better on being on my period.
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Posted on 12th March 2010 under Work
My co-workers can sometimes be a bitch. Women are already very conscious of how they look and what they eat and I don't need Y’ALL to tell me that. They tend to make a big deal of what I eat. If I eat a muffin in the morning, some of my co-workers (especially two of them) make comments about it which are really not necessary. Like wow, I never knew you could eat that much. I distinctly remember that once there was a breakfast buffet and since I didn't bring lunch, I piled up my breakfast plate with food. And this ass of a guy had to come and say, wow you are going to eat all that? In front of everyone else I must add. That was really unnecessary. YES I was going to eat all of that because I didn't bring lunch. And all he could say was wow that's still a lot. Is a muffin and a croissant and maybe a tart too much for brunch considering the next meal I’ll have is probably after 7pm? Like am I fucking commenting on the fact that you are eating fucking cheesy lasagna from Sbarro’s every day? NO. Then why do you feel like you need to share that comment with me. There is also this girl who makes fun of my eating habits as well (and can you guess both the guy and the girl hang out together). That day I was telling this girl about how much I like a muffin from a certain place. And she just popped into the conversation (out of nowhere) and went “ya, and she can eat all of that”. Like WTF is your problem? Do I comments on what you eat? NO. Why should you comment on what I eat? I am surprised to hear comments about food coming from her at the beginning considering her fiance is actually OBESE. I mean what gives BOTH of them the right to share their fucking opinions about what I eat. They only pick on me, surprisingly. When they see someone else gulping down an ice cream, they don’t say a word.
Anyways, after repetitive comments from those two individuals, I actually stopped eating muffins and other baked goods in the morning. I started eating tomatoes and other veggies to satisfy hunger. But I do still sometimes crave for greasy food. So the next best thing to not eating it is looking at it. And those two people still have a problem with that! The same fucking guy from the breakfast buffet came into my cubicle once unannounced and saw me looking at some Mexican cuisine food items. He then started laughing and started calling the other co-workers to let them know that I was looking at pictures of food. What the FUCK is your problem? Like seriously, I have stopped eating it, can you just give it up now? If I can't eat, can I just not fucking look as well? It pissed me off COMPLETELY. After repeatedly disconnecting the phone as he tried to make the calls, I just asked what he wanted and then just told him to get out. And I don’t really talk to him or the girl that much anymore. If you can’t allow me to be me, then just don’t be a fucking part of my life.
PS: Sorry for all the cursing, I got really mad when I was writing the post.
PPS @ Kitty: A computer buddy is like someone who helps the seniors set up computer and email accounts and teach them how to use the email so that they can email their loved one. I also help them with browsing and teach them how to play games on the internet etc. I actually got a call from them today and they said they gather 4-5 who would be interested in doing the program with me. I won't be starting the placement before April though but I am still excited
Anyways, after repetitive comments from those two individuals, I actually stopped eating muffins and other baked goods in the morning. I started eating tomatoes and other veggies to satisfy hunger. But I do still sometimes crave for greasy food. So the next best thing to not eating it is looking at it. And those two people still have a problem with that! The same fucking guy from the breakfast buffet came into my cubicle once unannounced and saw me looking at some Mexican cuisine food items. He then started laughing and started calling the other co-workers to let them know that I was looking at pictures of food. What the FUCK is your problem? Like seriously, I have stopped eating it, can you just give it up now? If I can't eat, can I just not fucking look as well? It pissed me off COMPLETELY. After repeatedly disconnecting the phone as he tried to make the calls, I just asked what he wanted and then just told him to get out. And I don’t really talk to him or the girl that much anymore. If you can’t allow me to be me, then just don’t be a fucking part of my life.
PS: Sorry for all the cursing, I got really mad when I was writing the post.
PPS @ Kitty: A computer buddy is like someone who helps the seniors set up computer and email accounts and teach them how to use the email so that they can email their loved one. I also help them with browsing and teach them how to play games on the internet etc. I actually got a call from them today and they said they gather 4-5 who would be interested in doing the program with me. I won't be starting the placement before April though but I am still excited
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Posted on 28th February 2010 under Life
A BIG gush of snow hit us this week which resulted in me spending a lot of time at home. I was not able to go out and do my usual activities on weeknights. Instead I stayed home and watched some Harlequin movies while it snowed like cats and dogs outside. The storm took a rest on Tuesday and Wednesday and returned with a vengeance on Thursday and Friday. Overall the 25cm of snow resulted in a lot of shoveling. The snow turned really wet (almost to rain) yesterday due to the warm temperature and most of the snow has melted by today due to the 2 degree high temperature. Some parts are still quite slushy though. Anyways, the worst is over. Some minor snowfall is said to occur this following week following some glimpses of sunshine.
So one of my resolutions for this year is about to be achieved. I finally got my police check that I required to volunteer at the retirement home. I went for the orientation yesterday and everything is set to go. I will be placed as a computer buddy and a meal assistant. The meal assistance requires some training but its not going to happening anytime soon. My supervisor will be out of town for the next two weeks so when she comes back, she'll train me before I can start doing things on my own. So I have a good two week buffer before I start my volunteer placement. This will give me some time to plan out my fitness and school activities around the volunteer placement schedule. Everything worked out for the best, I guess
PS: GO TEAM CANADA █♥█ Most gold medals in Winter Olympics history....proud of you guys! Y'all deserve it!
So one of my resolutions for this year is about to be achieved. I finally got my police check that I required to volunteer at the retirement home. I went for the orientation yesterday and everything is set to go. I will be placed as a computer buddy and a meal assistant. The meal assistance requires some training but its not going to happening anytime soon. My supervisor will be out of town for the next two weeks so when she comes back, she'll train me before I can start doing things on my own. So I have a good two week buffer before I start my volunteer placement. This will give me some time to plan out my fitness and school activities around the volunteer placement schedule. Everything worked out for the best, I guess
PS: GO TEAM CANADA █♥█ Most gold medals in Winter Olympics history....proud of you guys! Y'all deserve it!
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Posted on 20th February 2010 under Life
I am planning on joining a boxing class in the coming months. I think it would be a great way to get rid of anger and stress. I tend to physically take my anger out on people sometimes. Don't worry, its not like I beat people up 
but I have a habit of randomly hitting people in the arm or on the head if they poke fun at me or just annoy me. It is unintentionally done in most cases. Considering, I have no muscle at all, my punches and jabs are usually not worth any pain to the people I often do this to who happen BIG and MUSCULAR. Still I feel like it is not a proper way to behave and boxing can help me throw all the punches I want to before I tire myself out.
I also plan on doing hot yoga sometimes. Well I have been planning this since January but I can never seem to find the time. The only class that is economically possible for me to attend is offered on Friday nights and I am afraid that if I do it then, then there is no way I could physically make it to my Saturday aerobics class. And that would be a waste of money since I already prepaid for those 10 aerobics classes that happen on Saturday. So my best choice is to wait until the aerobics classes end (which is March 6) and then give hot yoga a try. That way, if I am physically exhausted and rigged with muscle aches on Friday night after the class (which i am pretty sure I will be), I won't have to worry about how I would make my way through the aerobics class on the following day.
In other news, the "going Fisheterian" thing has allowed me to introduce a lot of Thai food into my diet. For lunch last week, I made Thai Seafood Red Curry. And it was very delicious with the white rice. For this week's lunch, I made Pad Thai with Tofu and Eggs (image below) and after taste testing it, it is just delish.
Not eating land animals (as my friend calls it) has also made me eat a lot more veggies. I go through a pack of carrots, bag of lettuce and two packs of cherry tomatoes every week. I have also gotten pretty good in making salads. I made a very interesting Asian salad today with tomatoes, carrots, mangoes and bean sprouts. It looked really pretty so I decided to take a snapshot and share it with you guys.
but I have a habit of randomly hitting people in the arm or on the head if they poke fun at me or just annoy me. It is unintentionally done in most cases. Considering, I have no muscle at all, my punches and jabs are usually not worth any pain to the people I often do this to who happen BIG and MUSCULAR. Still I feel like it is not a proper way to behave and boxing can help me throw all the punches I want to before I tire myself out.I also plan on doing hot yoga sometimes. Well I have been planning this since January but I can never seem to find the time. The only class that is economically possible for me to attend is offered on Friday nights and I am afraid that if I do it then, then there is no way I could physically make it to my Saturday aerobics class. And that would be a waste of money since I already prepaid for those 10 aerobics classes that happen on Saturday. So my best choice is to wait until the aerobics classes end (which is March 6) and then give hot yoga a try. That way, if I am physically exhausted and rigged with muscle aches on Friday night after the class (which i am pretty sure I will be), I won't have to worry about how I would make my way through the aerobics class on the following day.
In other news, the "going Fisheterian" thing has allowed me to introduce a lot of Thai food into my diet. For lunch last week, I made Thai Seafood Red Curry. And it was very delicious with the white rice. For this week's lunch, I made Pad Thai with Tofu and Eggs (image below) and after taste testing it, it is just delish.
Not eating land animals (as my friend calls it) has also made me eat a lot more veggies. I go through a pack of carrots, bag of lettuce and two packs of cherry tomatoes every week. I have also gotten pretty good in making salads. I made a very interesting Asian salad today with tomatoes, carrots, mangoes and bean sprouts. It looked really pretty so I decided to take a snapshot and share it with you guys.
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Posted on 15th February 2010 under General
I went to the King Tut Exhibit in the Art Gallery of Ontario today. And boy was it packed. I never knew people in general were this interested in culture and art. In fact this is my first time ever visiting an art gallery.
The exhibit was a great experience. The statues of the pharaohs and the queens were really great, especially the ones that were larger than life sized. Some of them contained hieroglyphics. They also had some everyday objects that were used at those times. These include beds, chairs etc. It was interesting to see that the legs of the chairs and beds had "feline" paws in the bottom. I guess they were very fond of the cat family. Also almost all the headgears that the statues wore had a sculptured Uraeus which are basically a cobra leaping out of it. The best part of the exhibit had to be the jewelery and the gold. The Egyptians surely loved their gold. There were slippers and even hand and toe protectors that were made of gold. Out of the jewelery, I really liked the cobra bracelet and necklace. I will definitely be revered by my co-workers if I would ever wear them to work 
. There was also a gold crown that had gold leaves attached to it. That was a splendid view. After the exhibit we went to the gift shop where I bought a magnet which basically was a handpainted confinette of King Tut.
While at the exhibit, there were several references to the Book of Dead. I am really fascinated by what it contains so I planning to get a copy of the translated version of it so I can read it in my spare time or while I am taking the train (although my friends commented that people might give me the weird eye if I was reading on the train). Can't wait to read it either ways
The exhibit was a great experience. The statues of the pharaohs and the queens were really great, especially the ones that were larger than life sized. Some of them contained hieroglyphics. They also had some everyday objects that were used at those times. These include beds, chairs etc. It was interesting to see that the legs of the chairs and beds had "feline" paws in the bottom. I guess they were very fond of the cat family. Also almost all the headgears that the statues wore had a sculptured Uraeus which are basically a cobra leaping out of it. The best part of the exhibit had to be the jewelery and the gold. The Egyptians surely loved their gold
. There were slippers and even hand and toe protectors that were made of gold. Out of the jewelery, I really liked the cobra bracelet and necklace. I will definitely be revered by my co-workers if I would ever wear them to work . There was also a gold crown that had gold leaves attached to it. That was a splendid view. After the exhibit we went to the gift shop where I bought a magnet which basically was a handpainted confinette of King Tut.While at the exhibit, there were several references to the Book of Dead. I am really fascinated by what it contains so I planning to get a copy of the translated version of it so I can read it in my spare time or while I am taking the train (although my friends commented that people might give me the weird eye if I was reading on the train). Can't wait to read it either ways
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Posted on 14th February 2010 under Rant
I am apparently VERY good at mocking and dissing people. Infact that's all I did for the most of today and yesterday.
I know it sounds really bitchy (even I am surprised how uncannily RUDE I can be) but the GOOD part is that no REAL feelings were hurt; I did not actually go up to real people and diss them. Me and my friend just started dissing on people we "can't get along with" to each other.
It all started yesterday when a friend of mine started complaining about someone she knew. For a good laugh, I started saying that if I ever met him, I would mock him by saying various rude things to him on his face. Next thing you know, we started poking fun at people we knew, pretending how we would FRONT them off if I ever met them. And this continued for hours until we had to retire.
I met up with this friend today and we continued the dissing game. Even though it was SOO RUDE, we just couldn't stop laughing and creating new ways to mock these people. Nevertheless, this experience helped me learn a few things about myself:
1) I am very good at mocking people.
2) I can be exceptionally rude if I want it to be.
3) I should probably participate in Yo Mamma.
4) The mocking of persons actually made me feel OK about being single on Valentine's Day. I hide my vulnerability by being rude.
Happy Valentine's Day and Chinese New Year to all!
I know it sounds really bitchy (even I am surprised how uncannily RUDE I can be) but the GOOD part is that no REAL feelings were hurt; I did not actually go up to real people and diss them. Me and my friend just started dissing on people we "can't get along with" to each other.
It all started yesterday when a friend of mine started complaining about someone she knew. For a good laugh, I started saying that if I ever met him, I would mock him by saying various rude things to him on his face. Next thing you know, we started poking fun at people we knew, pretending how we would FRONT them off if I ever met them. And this continued for hours until we had to retire.
I met up with this friend today and we continued the dissing game. Even though it was SOO RUDE, we just couldn't stop laughing and creating new ways to mock these people. Nevertheless, this experience helped me learn a few things about myself:
1) I am very good at mocking people.
2) I can be exceptionally rude if I want it to be.
3) I should probably participate in Yo Mamma.
4) The mocking of persons actually made me feel OK about being single on Valentine's Day. I hide my vulnerability by being rude.
Happy Valentine's Day and Chinese New Year to all!
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Posted on 13th February 2010 under General
Finally finished uploading fusion news and adding the new layout. I am too tired to post right now; shall post tomorrow or Monday.
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